I feel ugly (but I'm not emo)

I just need to have a tiny rant. I found a passage from a book that fits pretty well:


"I find myself with a new fear: That I shall never, never be pretty...It's not like there's anything horrific about me, it's just that there's nothing that stands out. No mystery. I am not the type of girl who gets many secret admires, or men pining after me, a girl immortalized in song. And I cannot say that it doesn't sting to say this. When I go to parties-if I get invited, that is- will anybody notice me? Or will y best guy friends have to dance with me because they felt forced to? Could I ever be truly beautiful??"


I just feel ugly today, that's all. I feel like no guy ever pays attention to me. Except for the really annoying ones. I just want somebody to tell me that I matter to them. Am I crazy? Or just being a girl? Or what?


Oh, and the quote was from Rebel Angles, the sequel to A Great and Terrible Beauty.They are AMAZING and you should read them. And I apologize for the depressing-ness of this entry. We will return to out regular programming later tonight or tomorrow. But sometimes you just have to get stuff off your chest.